iGRAnDiloquence - notice the GRAD in capital letters?

Did she fall off the face of the earth?

igrandiloquence — Wed, 29 Sep 2010 13:05:17 +0000

Just recognizing that my blog is almost a year old and I only have had three post? I can’t possibly show my diligence when I cannot even be true to a nifty little blog on wordpress. I’ve decided to reopen ‘iGRAnDiloquence” with a twists. I am loving my intellectual burst of positive energy to the point of … providing and researching information for others to view. I will get back to this blog in a while, trust me we have TONS to catch up on.

When will my reflection show…?

igrandiloquence — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 04:46:15 +0000

When times get hard, you seem to lose yourself into the fog. You do not feel the need to live, the need to carry on industriously, the motivation to change the world goes kaput: into thin air. Life can be hard, yes. I never thought that I would have that moment of hardship this early in my life. I am usually a happy person with happy thoughts and a smile that is just radiant, but this last month has brought some new awakenings into my psyche. I am not going to bore you with the ramifications of my last month, but just know that I am more motivated to help others NOT feel the way I have felt this past month. No human being should have to go through what I went through… You know it’s funny. The movie The Soloist pops into my thoughts as I write this blog because Anthony Ayers Jr. and I are somewhat similar. Throughout the movie, he is not able to see the diasters that are occurring right outside his pupils, instead he sees a world of beautiful imaginations… beautiful people… beautiful sounds. Now I may not have a concrete disability, but the disability within myself is damning enough: I do not feel human sometimes. It’s hard.

So, I originally started this post say.. two days ago and I just couldn’t finish in time but I am glad I took the pause. I do not know how your life is going, but be known that my life is in shambles at the moment. I guess I was placing myself too high on the pedestal to even fathom how to contemplate with the issues that I am going with. I am seriously thinking of seeking a therapist to combat my bouts of intense lack of focus and for the worrysome behavior that I seem to exhibit daily. So, I will not be too open and honest with my current situations but I would love to share with you all (whomever even reads this, but at this moment I could care less) my current situations and issues that I cannot admittedly fix on my own.

Housing/Financial Trouble
Starting about three months ago, I found out some troubling news about my current living situations: WE HAVE TO MOVEI was like damn, not again. I was just getting comfortable living in a one story house. It kind of reflected onto my Sims 3 characters because I refused to let them live in a two or three story house. Anyway, to make a long story short: We are in a lovely apartment complex, and I sleep on the nice comfy SOFA… not sofa-bed but sofa and I have nothing of my own. I come home to noise, I sleep through heavy footsteps above me, and I have no finances to support my family. It sucks guys… I wake up daily wondering if I should go down that path of doing something degrading to myself and feminists just to earn some more funds for my family. I really feel helpless because I use to be able to pick them up when they have fallen and now that seems impossible to say the least. But, I need to realize that life throws you curveballs and it is up to me to hit that lovely strike and run my homerun… and baseball isn’t even my favorite sport!

LOVE LIFE
So, I finally heard from my supposed boyfriend last night. Being nonchalant as usual even though I have not heard from him in about… let’s say five FREAKING weeks. He had ways of getting in touch with me… trust me I know this and refused to and expects me to just leap to him again. NO DANG WAY MAN… in those last five weeks that he was gone I felt like myself again. When we were going through this BS before, I cried and cried and wondered what I did wrong for the silent treatment. Now, I could care less. He still hasn’t talked to me YET since yesterday and I think it’s time to let go…

SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL!
I graduate in almost a month and I cannot be happier to finish this blog post off with some good news. Despite all the tomfoolery you have read up above, I am actually doing quite well academically. I formally asked my professors for recommendations to attend UGA next fall and even have some job interviews lined up at Departmental Human Services facilities in the midlands. I cannot wait to shine through this opaque clothes that I am wearing lately. I do need to blossom and show my younger generation that even through pain and suffering there is some joy at the end of the tunnel.

So until tomorrow or whenever I decide to write again, I am quite neglectful for my baby IG, I am not going to let this bring me down. I am starting anew. I want to lose weight badly and I may even get GBypass. I am going to research and sign up for it on New Years or something. A friend of min went through it before and she looks great now. I wanna be beautiful for me… and this is a great start. If I cannot get GBypass, I may get a private trainer and train for about 10 hrs a week or something. I am SERIOUS you guys. So So Serious.

Something must be wrong with me…

igrandiloquence — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 03:46:29 +0000

(looooooong sigh) Besides the obvious of not posting in like a week, I am taking a turn for the worst. I am so excited that all of my friends are finding that one true someone, but I seem to wonder, “What about me?” Is there something wrong me that guys can pick and chew out before approaching me for a serious relationship? It kind of hurts to know that I attract guys who are only about one thing either sexually or financially… I would love to have a guy that’s hope and admirations includes making me feel more of a woman and less like a failure. Ladies, I know you have had this talk with yourselves once before and wondered the same thing: “Is it me?” Is there something about us as women that creates this long waiting period for a potential partner? It is hard to be content when half of your generation is getting proposed to at your college graduation, or half of your generation is giving birth to the next leaders of America. I want to give birth to a beautiful baby more than anything. Besides graduating from college, I want the responsibility of saying that “That’s my child. I love my child. I will do anything for my child.” And I would. So in conclusion, I really should start evaluating my life, before I let my life get the best of me. I definitely do not want to end up stuck in purgatory because my decision to be with nobody at all overshadowed my patience.

Whoosh, now that I have gotten that SOB story out of the way. I think I am going to hire a personal trainer. I think losing about 50+ pounds would make me more confident in my appearance. For all those who know me, you see me everyday strutting along Columbia College walkways or even posing in a mirror, but on the inside that’s all I worry about. There is a reason for everything we do, and yeah YOU DAMN CONSUMERS make my life hell. All you do is criticize and judge what you cannot accept, instead of appreciating and encouraging what you cannot change. But I am back on the previous route that I do not what to take, so I shall talk about school.

I am excited, I have exactly two months until I graduate and I have successfully sent off four recommendations for grad school. Well I have not sent them, but I gave the teachers the packets to complete the recommendations and now I have to work on my narrative statement. I am such a eloquent writer, I am not too worried but I will get it looked over by the Career Services at my school. I have been slacking on my GRE studying but tomorrow, tonight rather I will definitely open some vocabulary. I really need to get these wordlists done by the end of the month as well as studying some Quantitative Questions. I am going to sign up for the GRE on November 5 or something and send my application in by the second week of November to beat the deadlines. Anyway the word for tonight will be.

Amalgamate – to mix, to combine into one

What’s iGRAnDiloquence?

igrandiloquence — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 01:50:12 +0000

I wouldn’t be surprised if everyone rushed to dictionary.com and typed in igrandiloquence for a brief definition to make yourself seem as intellectual as I… but fear not, my lovely readers. The word is closer to home than you think. Throughout my two months of extensive vocabulary learning, grandioloquent came as one of my “Keep in head” words. I was amazed at the beauty and pompous style or attitude that this word embodies. A word having style and attitude, you are crazy?! I am not! Have you ever read a word that you felt described you in so many ways that it is like your little sidekick? Well, grandiloquence is a word that describes me… pompous, flighty, colorful… ME! but if you do want the actual definition ….

lofty, extravagantly colorful, pompous, or bombastic style, manner, or quality especially in language

Now for all of those who know me, this definition definitely describes Latoya Monique J. Enough of that, I will always open up with a “Whatja know!?” type of story and then to the meat of the post.

I have decided to make a blog because I am about to graduate college in a couple of months, and it is always great to have something to reflect on my journey. In December 2009, I will be a distinguished graduate of Columbia College in Columbia, South Carolina 29203! What an amazing accomplishment that is, and the diploma actually reads like I have outline a line above. Amazing isn’t it. Well, there are some things that will be a little upsetting about leaving Columbia College: the students, professors, personalities, and attitudes. You would think being at an all women’s institution you would be kind of ERRATIC, but unwise one I beg to differ. Being at Columbia College has made me a smarter female in this cruel glass ceiling society. I have used my sociological imagination (KUDOS to DR. JOYCE FIELDS) and enhanced my horizons. This blog will be about anything and everything: Fashion, GRE Preparation, Love Life, Intimacy, Leadership, and best of all Me. Thank you for joining me on my preparation to become an industrious (GRE word #1) pundit (GRE word #2) scholar.

Have a great night you all!