Something must be wrong with me…
(looooooong sigh) Besides the obvious of not posting in like a week, I am taking a turn for the worst. I am so excited that all of my friends are finding that one true someone, but I seem to wonder, “What about me?” Is there something wrong me that guys can pick and chew out before approaching me for a serious relationship? It kind of hurts to know that I attract guys who are only about one thing either sexually or financially… I would love to have a guy that’s hope and admirations includes making me feel more of a woman and less like a failure. Ladies, I know you have had this talk with yourselves once before and wondered the same thing: “Is it me?” Is there something about us as women that creates this long waiting period for a potential partner? It is hard to be content when half of your generation is getting proposed to at your college graduation, or half of your generation is giving birth to the next leaders of America. I want to give birth to a beautiful baby more than anything. Besides graduating from college, I want the responsibility of saying that “That’s my child. I love my child. I will do anything for my child.” And I would. So in conclusion, I really should start evaluating my life, before I let my life get the best of me. I definitely do not want to end up stuck in purgatory because my decision to be with nobody at all overshadowed my patience.
Whoosh, now that I have gotten that SOB story out of the way. I think I am going to hire a personal trainer. I think losing about 50+ pounds would make me more confident in my appearance. For all those who know me, you see me everyday strutting along Columbia College walkways or even posing in a mirror, but on the inside that’s all I worry about. There is a reason for everything we do, and yeah YOU DAMN CONSUMERS make my life hell. All you do is criticize and judge what you cannot accept, instead of appreciating and encouraging what you cannot change. But I am back on the previous route that I do not what to take, so I shall talk about school.
I am excited, I have exactly two months until I graduate and I have successfully sent off four recommendations for grad school. Well I have not sent them, but I gave the teachers the packets to complete the recommendations and now I have to work on my narrative statement. I am such a eloquent writer, I am not too worried but I will get it looked over by the Career Services at my school. I have been slacking on my GRE studying but tomorrow, tonight rather I will definitely open some vocabulary. I really need to get these wordlists done by the end of the month as well as studying some Quantitative Questions. I am going to sign up for the GRE on November 5 or something and send my application in by the second week of November to beat the deadlines. Anyway the word for tonight will be.
Amalgamate – to mix, to combine into one
